I’m writing this monthly healing message (look out for the flower essence for the month) on a beautiful country drive on the way to watch my daughter’s basketball game.. It’s my birthday. It’s also Mother’s Day. I’m 48 and it feels amazing … only after a month of deep introspection.
The New Moon in Perth is at 7.47pm Tuesday May 15th.
April In Review
April must’ve been one of the most intense months we’ve had for some time.
A time to take responsibility for our shadow aspects. Such as anger, grief, pain, ego and sadness. The rollercoaster of April sets the stage for the changes that are coming this month. There’s been a purging of sorts. For some of us it’s closure on a past period that started seven years ago, when Uranus moved into Aries.
Aries is a symbol of the individual. A time of awakening on a very deep individual level. The individual breaking away from tribe mentality to find a truth of its own.
It’s been a very interesting time.
It’s been a volatile time and deepening of spirit over this period. So many of us dealt with major life crisis and it wasn’t just one thing, it was several things at once. It’s been relentless. A time of inner resolve, clarity, understanding and a new foundation on which our lives are built. Even a deepening of what our individual truth or truths are.
What was no longer “us” fell away.
I think back to the beginning of this transit 7 years a go and it was the year my father died. It was the beginning of an incredible journey.
We had a very tense and challenging relationship. He had his issues. I had mine.
When I discovered he was dying, it was one of those life defining moments. I realised I had a choice. Do I harbour my pain, and anger towards him? Or do I let it go? Find a place of peace and forgiveness? I chose the latter.
He was a conflicted man.
The days that followed, my Dad revealed things I never knew about him. What I’ve since come to understand is that he was a scared, sensitive person. Unable to show emotion or allow for any sense of vulnerability .
From the day of diagnosis, I was determined to be there for my father. It was my way of coping. When he agreed to receive flower essence treatments I didn’t hold back. I was in feet first. I thought he was just humouring me. I did it anyway.
Years prior, I told my father I wanted to give up work and study body mind medicine. I was always ( and still do) looking at the why’s in life. Digging deeper about the workings of the mind and human behaviour. Trying to find peace and come to terms with my own inner conflicts and demons.
At that time I didn’t have his support. I rarely did. I did it anyway.
I created treatments to help manage the effects of his cancer. His treatments evolved into navigating and accepting death. I was so present with this. Not once did I doubt what I was doing or what he needed. Everything came naturally.
It was challenging to watch him deteriorate. Before too long he was asking for the treatments, they were working. From a hard arse, alcoholic atheist, this was music to my ears. This was the feeling of acceptance I had longed for.
One afternoon after a long week of radiation therapy, it was obvious Dad was struggling. He asked me to help him plan his funeral. I agreed.
We discussed everything from food, to pall bearers. “Couldn’t be on a Saturday or a Monday. The guys play golf on those days” he said
“I want this music,” he exclaimed – “I don’t know what it’s called. Oh, bloody hell” You could tell he was getting frustrated.
Then I paused. I instantly knew – I don’t know how, I just did.
I opened the computer – I typed Cannon in D by Vivaldi and played it to him.
My stubborn grumpy ass father fell into this soft vulnerable man. He fell into a sea of tears. He sobbed for what felt like an eternity. All I could do was hold his hand.
“How did you know?,” he asked,
“I just did Dad, I just did,” I answered
It was from this moment I knew my father and I were on the same page.
My Dad died a week later. All I could do was sit and hold his hand.
Through my father’s death I reclaimed myself and the path I was meant to follow. I look back on those days as the greatest gift.
Grieving him was challenging. I felt I’d lost a relationship that had just begun. What I’ve since come to realise it was the beginning of a new relationship I needed to have with myself.
I learnt that despite our ancestry, our circumstance you can heal, you can change and move forward. You can break the chain of the past.
Despite all the crap I went through when I was a child I’ve managed to overcome that. I’m proud of the woman I’ve become. I know my father is too.
I honour him. I honour him for everything that he has given me. Inner peace, inner strength, inner knowing and wisdom. Qualities I now try to pass on to my kids. The chain of understanding, compassion and healing lives on. The greatest gifts and legacy any daughter could ask for.
You can change. You can make sure that the next generation doesn’t put up with the crap you’ve had to endure. This is the choice in the legacy that you can leave behind. This is the point. These are the times we live in.
Uranus Moves Into Taurus
With the big planet of change moving into Taurus, the questions to ask are who or what are you choosing to connect with? What or who needs to go. You’ll know what this is.
This is where it gets interesting.
The New Moon 15th May
The new Moon in Taurus is one that brings in a brand new energy. Its timely. This occurs justprior to Uranus’s shift into Taurus. The Archetype of the earth, sensuality, and money.
Questions and big changes around how do you use your resources? How do you support the environment? How do you treat your body? All are up for review.
Breakthroughs can be seen in how we use and circulate money. Breakthroughs for cleaning up our environment are also on the cards.
Our inner security could be challenged, especially the things you find security in. What ever is stagnant in your life. Prepare for a shake up.
How do you feel when unexpected change happens? The loss of a job, a relationship, the breakup of a family, the loss of money or when someone dies. What’s your relationship with change? Do you embrace it? Or are you the type of person who’ll wait until change is forced upon you?
There are many things that you can’t control. Self acceptance and acceptance of what is can be incredibly empowering. Surrendering even more so. Being receptive and then acting on what your gut tells you is the whole point. Sometimes it’s more about feeling than logic. Sometimes its simply honouring the process.
Healing Theme For The Month
I’ve seen a lot of clients that are pushing past the point of pain, compromising their health and their immunity in order “to get the job done”. Flogging yourself in the name of progress is old school. All is needed is a simple mindset shift. You can still get things done. By going slow you can be more productive.
With the Uranus in Taurus over the next seven years, body mind connection will become more prevalent, especially in how we heal. Having a holistic view on health will be more of the norm. This is music to my ears.
After the rigorous energy of April it’s time to restore and rejuvenate. With Mars- the personal action planet, retrograding at the end of June. The shadow of this aspect has already begun. It’s the perfect time for this. More on that later.
Flower Essence of the Month
The flower essence that resonates with the theme of May is the beautiful Reed Trigger Plant.
This is the essence that helps the body to restore and rejuvenate after a long and arduous challenge or challenges. Especially when you’ve felt constantly tested. A little worn out? This essence raises the energy stores. It also helps you to relax and allow new energy of restoration to be available.
It awaken a sense of resilience and stamina. You can move forward without compromising the need for rest and renewal.
Mars the archetype for action, energy and dynamism will retrograde on 26 June. The shadow aspect began on the 11th May. It will continue til late September. This is the natural cycle where you need to look at where you place your energy, who you give your energy to and how you look after yourself. This is a time where we can chillax a little and reflect. You may likely feel less ambitious.
It may not be the time to expand into new areas, but to utilise the resources you already have.
People may feel frustrated and easily angered during this time.
Go with the flow and don’t push too hard. If you’re feeling lazy then you’re in flow with this pattern. It’s not a good time to assert yourself or instigate arguments. It’s about working towards an inner feeling of empowerment and making changes as things become apparent.
Personal themes will be presenting now. Take stock and watch what this means for you.
The full moon on the 29th is in the Archetype of Sagittarius the sign of adventure and free spirit. It will be a an amazing time to reflect on how you can use the changeable energy of Uranus which has shifted completely into Taurus. You can use your adventurous spirit to step out and shine in a new way and in a new light. Use the light of the moon to do it. What has made you feel secure or what you cling to, that which is tried and true may not feel so right for you now. What needs to be reborn or let go of once and for all will magnify. Transformation, adventure and allowing change to take place is the name of the game.
In May/June In Review
This is the month to welcome change. It’s also the time to tune into the body. Where are you holding tension? Is your mind acting as a constant humming machine full of constant chatter instead of a place of inspirational and creative thought? It’s through awareness of your inner world you can change your future for the better. Best not to resist.
Don’t wait til fate knocks on your door. Instead, move towards a sense of destiny whilst looking after yourself and those you love.
Until next month
Much flowery love
Tracy O’Meara Smith is a Holistic Health Practitioner. If she’s not working within her Perth Hills clinic, you’ll find her in the garden with her family, or in the bush soaking up the awesome flowery vibes.
Tracy uses a combination of natural therapies such as Bowen, Emmett and Flower Essence Therapy. Tracy helps people gain the peace, relief and new perspective they crave.
Tracy works 1:1 with women, online and within her clinic – Silverdale Natural Therapy. She treats women who suffer from chronic pain, insomnia, hormonal issues, and anxiety. Having two daughters of her own, she is unapologetically human. Through her own complex journey, she is sincerely motivated to leave this world a better woman and a better place.
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